^^

end

2010-08-05T13:40:00.000+07:00

the end of the story ~ bye..future...

favour flavor

2010-03-31T10:04:00.002+07:00

This will always be mine
Wondered why
A purpose, an argument, a smile
You're my favorite waste of time
Now, I need to survive
All the time
Another corner of my day
Starving for the next delay
Here is all my evidence
This is not for everyone
Pretends that I am making sense
Wanted you to know
This is where you have to go
And I keep following your days
This is not for everyone

by: The Morning After, quatro

:)

2010-03-14T02:18:00.000+07:00

it's over now

by: mocca

here

2010-03-11T08:04:00.003+07:00

everything here. before and after?

before?? .............................................................................. sad sad sad happy sad sad

middle? fun sad happy enjoy sad

after??.............................................................. flat

final?????? i don't know what will happen. god only know :)

b tough .

---

2010-03-10T02:37:00.003+07:00

black is blank ?????????

haven't grown??

2010-03-10T02:02:00.007+07:00

I'm labile
hey.. i have not grown
I'm aware about that
I'm just a spoiled child
a child who need affection
we just...

please understand me
i want to understand you too
i want to run away from the fact
i mean not dead
but ran away from all the facts
stating
i have not grown
we just...

What maturity parameters are?
What kind of maturity that are envisioned? desirable?
silence is not the answer
that's only my opinion
let's help each other
that all was fine until later
we just...

"he" who I want
not you or they!!

adult bogey for me
I want an adult with my maturity level

all went well with the natural
no complaints and a lack of or disappointed

photograph

2009-12-16T22:26:00.002+07:00

love it :)
thanks for tragicryan

bored and blank

2009-10-21T13:47:00.001+07:00

have not written this blog for a long time
miss it!
what will I write today?
I really have no idea ..... no no no no idea
even I'm not in the mood to do anything
Essentially I'm bored
My situation was not too good
I am sick influenza
and sounded pretty lazy to move
oh .... god ... cure me -_-"

narcissism in the last day in campus :D

2009-09-11T21:10:00.006+07:00

This morning I woke up late
I hurried off to college
then... I ran into the classroom
oh my god!
My morning class was not there
very annoying :(

will come the holidays
haaaaaappppyyy >_<*"

thanks for the glasses andy*i borrow it >xixixi<

for fun^^*

2009-09-11T20:35:00.009+07:00

me and asrii

French fries, kolak & chocolate caramel

sipping a cup of chocolate caramel

me.kolak.and hot chocolate caramel

HERE!!! we goes...

this is me and asri after broke away from the group in amplas to open fasting. we went to a coffee shop near 7soul, gejayan street. wow..so fun that night. we could forget the problems for a moment. we told stories and do some jokes until we tired. hehe ^^. that's FUN!

you ^ 1025

2009-09-08T08:57:00.003+07:00

You...did it again
You did hurt my heart
I don’t know how many times

You... I don’t know what to say
You’ve made me so desperately in love
and now you let me down

You said you’d never lie again
You said this time would be so right
But then I found you were lying there by her side

You.. You turn my whole life so blue
Drowning me so deep, I just can reach myself again
You.. Successfully tore my heart
Now it’s only pieces
Nothing left but pieces of you
frustated me with this love
I’ve been trying to understand
You know i’m trying i’m trying

its all about you

2009-09-07T16:57:00.005+07:00

you always shine my heart
but unfortunately we had to end this when all improved
i was not expecting about the answer
but i am happy because you gave me the good way instead. that is a better way for us now maybe...:)
always distance is the problem for us
it is not appropriate because we have to sacrifice the feeling
its hard for us! YES I REALLY KNOW!
we both know the feeling each other
the tears flow a little even I could cry..maybe i look like the numb...pale faced :(

ask me someday then...you promise me something

and i will always remember that

although you never remind me about that
but i will remind you...someday..thank you for everything
it's just life to survive
SURVIVE FOR LIFE..it hurts
keep smiling "tha".. ^^

i still believe

take it or leave it? hesitate!

2009-09-03T09:33:00.007+07:00

if you want to go, just run
if you want to be angry, that's only emotional
if you want to regret, will be remorse
I do not understand
I did not realize
I am blind
seemed to haven't eyes and heart
I will go if it you wanted
My tears were not valuable
there's nothing you can do
said sorry enough for forgiveness
but action was never there
I just need a little attention and little time
not much time will you waste with unused
I am sad and sorry for everything
thank you for all the affection
a happiness is quite beautiful
I've ever felt during my life
there is no sorrow that I feel right now
I am here, stay here and always give excuse...for all
i am not angry and don't hate....god is fair
smile ^^.v

hari ini

2009-08-26T14:05:00.002+07:00

hari ini bangun tidur mantengin leptop seharian karena ga ada kerjaan.hoahh,,,no idea.tugas dr dosen uda nungguin. besok harus uda di kumpul.jadi dateline hari ini kerjaan harus uda kelar.aduh! masa ya kerjaan tiap hari cm ol ol ol doang. arrgghh...bosan.ga ada cerita lagi kayanya buat bulan ini.setop! aku miliiih buat menyudahi cerita2 kmaren.dan case close.semoga tetap ada di posisi itu.berusaha merubah abuabu tua menjadi lebih muda dan menjadi putih.aku optimis :)HORAS!

>>>>>

2009-08-19T23:50:00.000+07:00

C L O S E

what for relationship is?

2009-08-18T16:04:00.002+07:00

define wether friend best friend than end with a relationship...

what for relationship is???

believe?? responsible?? together?? love? future? everlasting? what else?

that is not enough?

than... what are you doing when he or she ignore you. if he or she feel comfort than you need a clarity for your relationship but she or he doesn't answer your question?

how to ignoring someone?

and.. how to recognizing someone??

and than... how to accepting someone???

is it hard to make people don't hurts?

some people do something to make it better?

better not always better? or worst is always worst?

what about long distance? what is in your mind about distance?? nobody wants to have long distance relationship right?

make something difference in your life. don't be afraid with your feeling. tell to everyone that you still have heart and for sure that you are normal! :D love always make people curious.

so... what is the answer for my question?? what for relationship is?

miracle (*)

friendship is not a crime

2009-08-06T21:48:00.003+07:00

yay they are my friends. we always together when we going to the campus. hehe.. doing the task together. this photos not really complete. actually we consists of 7 persons, but she is being to her house in the village. hmm... yay! i hope we can be together until we graduated. :D yay. it must be fun.. enjoy our class darling. hiphiphurai..! keep spirit and thinking forward. and believe that we can do anything and trust that we can graduate as long as we can! just pray hope and effort that can help us. don't forget to make a wish everyday. yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!! ganbatee friends ^^

..

2009-08-02T17:32:00.001+07:00

"i forget than remember that i am here to stand up and to be straight for looking forward"

won life is....

2009-07-30T20:13:00.001+07:00

i found my happiness

i lost my sadness

what a happy me

i lost my sadness

yes! maybe now the world show me nothing

but i keep straight on my way

i know who i am

and try to begin new life

more appreciate

forget all my boo

and believe that the world will give you something

for sure! someday the world will give you something or anything instead

how wonderful life is

no one can happy or sad forever

but life as a wheel that can be rolling down sometimes

we can up and down suddenly

what amazing life

cause smile can bring me to happiness

i call you.... HAPPINESS

photos

2009-07-27T16:27:00.002+07:00

immortalize life with photos

thanks for : moks, thomas dian, hmbx, dp

taken last photo from years ago by dp

the newest is the first photo by moks

thanks all ^^

beautiful one

2009-07-22T12:14:00.004+07:00

too much beautiful things in this world

one of them is beach

there have a range of beauty and tranquility

i love beach

water and wind what can hear all my mind

beach as always beautiful

THE S.I.G.I.T @ liquid ^^

2009-07-21T00:58:00.007+07:00

party goers and happiness

no words without fun and laugh

silly silly silly

ouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu yeahhhhhhhh!!

happiness ^^

mama i love u

2009-07-15T13:25:00.008+07:00

key of future is maaaaama.

tepat kemarin! aku dibangunkan dengan suara papa yang sedikit panik kedengaranya. kira-kira jam 5 pagi. ternyata aku di sadarkan dengan terkaget-kaget. si mama... mama kenapa??? hiks.. rasanya pingin nangis liat mama yang lemes banget di atas kasur. maaaa... sambil aku usap-usap tangan mama... mama kenapa?? maa... mama...terus-terusan aku ucapin kata itu.. papa bilang pusing. mama pusing. kaya muter smuanya sampe ga brani buka mata. aku panik banget. dan seharusnya itu hari pertama aku masuk kelas writing dan udah niat banget buat masuk kelas itu. aku jadi ga niat buat masuk kuliah. dan untungnya tugas uda di kerjakan sahabat saya. :D *makasi inta ^^v. dokter dateng kerumah. mama di kasi obat sementara. tapi malah ga berenti muntah-muntah dan semakin lemas. papa udah berangkat kerja. akhirnya ak tlfon papa. biar mama dibawa ke rumahsakit. jm 10 mama dibawa ke rumahsakit. dan ternyata analisa dokter sama dengan dokter yang datang kerumah. mama kena vertigo. huuhu.. sedih liat mama sakit. jam sebelas aku masuk kuliah, rencana sih cuma mau kumpul tugas.. dan ijin jengukin mama karena mama harus rawat inap. ternyata beruntungnya hari itu,, ternyata kosong.. :) buru-buru deh aku selesain tugas di kelas dan ngabur jengukin mama. hhee... seneng liat mama uda aga baikan. seharian aku di rumah sakit nungguin maama biar aga baikan keadaanya. serasa liburan keluarga di rumahsakit... abangku yang biasa maen tiap malam dan aku jarang ketemu, dia nungguin seharian si mama. dan papa pulang kantor lebi cepat.. buat urusin mama juga. ma jangan sakit lagi... :(( sehat-sehat selalu ya.. sedih liat mama sakit. keadan mama membaik dan dokter ngebolehin mama pulang hari ini. huff.. kepanikanku hilang dan seneng mama uda sehatan. semoga mama bisa jaga kondisi badan lebih baik. dan sehat selalu.. i love u maaam...ga bisa ngebayangin kalo mamal hilang dari kehidupanku...:(( u 're everything maam!! children's sun!

de BU

2009-07-12T16:49:00.004+07:00

hilang penat

saat bernafas dengan senyap

aku mengerat

menggigit jari dengan erat

membeku

melemahkan nafsu

biarkan itu berdebu

dan tak terjamah

bukan aku menyerah

hanya berserah

sebelum semua menjadi fatal

aku ingin mendebukanya

semoga tak terjamah

saat aku mendekat

debu debu debu bantu aku

melemahkan nafsuku

session II

2009-07-08T23:54:00.004+07:00

jam 11 nyontreng

jam 5 ke rumah nicky jemput dia

jam 5. 20 ke mirota batik

jam 6 rame-rame di mirota batik

jam 8 rintux pulang

jam 9 keluar dari mirota batik

jam 9. 30 ke malioboro nongkrong iseng

jam 9. 45 pindah ke rumah coklat

jam 11 pulang kerumah masing-masing

HAPPY! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

sampai jumpa lagi semua

♥muah♥

reuniii

2009-07-07T00:47:00.004+07:00

setelah 5 tahun ga ketemu?? dari smp?? uhmm aku pikir semuanya uda pada berubah. hihi tambah gede-gede nih. suka-suka. tapi sama aja nihhh.. ga ada yang berubah. seru-seru aja. untungnya yahh.. :) kangen deh sama mereka. meskipun ga semuanya ada tapi yaaa.. happyy lah. akhirnya bisa ketemu juga. hihih.. mendadak banget sihh.. tapi nyenengin banget ih. he...sampe ketemu hari rebo yah smuaaa.. muaaaaaaaaaaaah!!

love u all dehh.. pokonya. :*

arigato ^^

2009-07-05T11:25:00.003+07:00

huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

surprised of this day!

i wake up and check all my web. the one of all is this. hhehe. and i've surprised!

shocked!!!d^^b (your mission completed sir!)

its my newest blogger theme's. thanks a lot for weirdeetz^^ hhihihi.. i love this theme so much. although you spy me all around. hauhuhauhahua... scarring me? huhauhhuaa.. spooky! but i wanna say thank you so much.. hehehehe.. if i made you confused and doesn't feel sleepy because i gives you a job. AGAIN? hehehihi.. once more.. from my deepest heart THANKSSS a LOOOOOTTT :)

keep spy me around?! *^#$%@#$ hahaha..! :P :D :) :X

RINDU

2009-07-05T01:11:00.000+07:00

Ku langkahkan kakiku

Melewati waktu

Bersama dengan bunga taman hatiku

Yang selalu menemani

Perjalanan ini

Didalam hati dan di dalam mimpiku

Bagaikan bunga ditaman yang sangat indah

Semerbak wangi tercium dalam cinta

Kan ku bawa kau terbang ke atas sana

Menemani terangnya bulan dan bintang

Kan kudendangkan lagu ini tuk bungaku tersayang

Dalam hati yang penuh dengan rasa cinta dan sayang

I LOVE THIS SONG verryyyy muchmuchmuch! UNTIL NOW! do you REMEMBER?

hear me...hear me...

urgent??

2009-07-03T20:21:00.000+07:00

urgent

urgent!

^^v

i've new spirit for life from now! whereas thats show me nothing! but i enjoy it.... :) bye sadness... thanks thanks thanks... hiihihihihii

under construction

2009-07-03T11:01:00.000+07:00

i wake up late again! oh my gggoood.. :(

think of him? i don't really want again. i don't mind if he think of me too. i feel silly since 4 days ago. i don't feel fully alive every morning. i can't feel calm and i feel nervous every open my eyes. i want to forget him because he has forgotten me. is it fear? actually what he wanted? why we aren't talk much before? you only send me a messages and you never answer it again. its not enough! your answer can't satisfying me. i would be a stronger girl.. but now? tomorrow? or the day after tomorrow? oh my good.. everyday is hard for me. wait a certainty that is not definitive. how stupid is I. hey.. I can see the situation and your circumstances. I can understand what one of my. I apologize for all. if it must end, I will accept. at least we can be friends. is it right. pleaseee... don't run away from reality. don't be a looser. make sure that all aren't useless. i look weak 4 days. I currently fall. and I need people who can lift my body and treat the injured. I need people who can entertain and accompany me for this while. i need support. thanks for my friend who has listen me last night. i feel better although never calm down and relax. i am nervous and worried about myself. I sincerely love you. please use your sense.

perasaan berawal dari kebiasaan dan aku percaya kebiasaan yang membawa aku sepeerti ini dan sangat merasa kehilangan saat kebiasaan yang biasa itu menjadi luar biasa. adakah lagi kebiasaan itu? atau hilang kemana kata-kata yang mulai terbiasa itu. aku rindu dengan kebiasaan itu. tapi keikhlasan dan ketulusan yang akan mengembalikan titik normal itu. penguasaan diri yang tidak stabil yang sangat melelahkan

i let you free...

kopi

2009-07-02T10:41:00.000+07:00

apa perbedaan sebenarnya berbohong putih dengan menjaga perasaan? bohong slalu aja jadi masalah. seperti meneguk kopi hitam kental tanpa gula sedikitpun! bukanya menjaga perasaan itu lebih berarti di bandingkan dengan kata berbohong. seharusnya ucapan terimakasih, karena menjaga maksud itu perasaan bukanlah bermaksud bohong. dan menjaga supaya akhirnya tidak ada yang tersakiti. apa kita tidak boleh memikirkan perasaan orang dan tetap saja melakukan apa yang di inginkan!? hah! jahat. dan semua orang itu punya sisi jahat. dan aku yakin ga semua orang sejahat dan melakukan semua dengan sengaja. aku yakin semua orang pasti pernah bohong. dan mereka memikirkan buat apa mereka berbohong. cinta teman sahabat keluarga diri sendiri pun pernah di alami dengan berbohong. itu memang ga sepenuhnya di benarkan. dan di salahkan. tergantung pada penilaian orang masing-masing. sesempurna apakah orang yang bisa menganggap seorang itu pembohong? apa mereka pun tidak pernah berbohong? NAIF! tidak ada orang yang sempurna kan? dimana juga kita bisa menilai batas kesempurnaan orang? kita juga tidak bisa.. look at the mirror.. cukup di renungkan. cukup lelah sepertinya mendengar kata itu. tidak asing di telinga, bahkan semenjak kecil kata itu pasti pernah terdengar. come on... don't judge people as a liar if you never lie! trust with yourself and say anything what you want to say! if you would not, keep in your mind and think about it. that is not lie! don't blame another people! aku tidak menunjuk hal ini kepada siapapun. aku cukup melihat bagaimana aku dan hal apa yang sudah aku lakukan. ini bukan juga pembenaran atas semua yang pernah aku lakukan pada siapapun. semua orang punya hak untuk melakukan hal yang dia mau. dengan berbagai pertimbangan tentunya.. pengalaman-pengalaman yang ada setidaknya mengajari bagaimana kita harus bersikap. bertanya kepada orang-orang dan mereka tidak bisa menjawab. semua jawaban itu ada di diri kita. ucap mereka sih! dan ternyata benar. rasa sayang kah yang bisa di jadikan alasan? itu bukan alasan. keadaan yang mengharuskan itu terjadi. salahkan saja kalau ingin menyalahkan. tetap berdiri seperti ini dan meyakini hal ini baik buat mereka saat itu dan menyesali pernah melakukan hal yang menyerupai kata bohong itu. memang kepercayaan itu mahal dan susah di dapatkan. tapi aku percaya siapapun itu suatu saat akan mengerti maksud dari semua itu. menyayangi semua orang yang ada di dekat ku. tanpa terkecuali. dan setiap orang pasti menginginkan hal yang terbaik buat orang yang di sayanginya. mungkin kalian tersenyum sengit membaca ini. tapi ini semua adalah suatu hal yang pernah aku rasakan. dan aku kehilangan sesuatu yang aku usahakan dan berusaha membuat jadi kenyataan. ternyata semua sia-sia setelah keadan sedikit menerima. tapi aku tidak akan pernah menyesal pernah menjadi bagian dari selembar cerita yang belum jadi itu. aku lelah dan menyudahi semuanya. membiarkan yang sudah terjadi ya sudah biar terlewati. kesedihan yang meluap pun akan segera terlupakan dengan bergantinya waktu. semua akan biasa saja.. aku pada siapapun dan siapapun padaku...menggantikan kopi pahit tanpa gula dengan kopi yang di seduh dengan sedikit gula. menyenangkann sekali :)

backsound: sore-apatis ria

setengah lima

^^ smangatt! i love you all.. much much!

2009-07-02T08:19:00.001+07:00

fucked up! stuck! bored!

mine! i love it. and i enjoy...

feat with:

http://cekeremez.deviantart.com/art/Pretty-Boring-127934840

:(

2009-07-01T21:37:00.000+07:00

aku ingin menangis

tapi kenapa?

aku ingin berkeluh

dengan siapa?

menangis.. air mata

tidak bisa!

ku paksa menangis

tetap tidak bisa

ada apa sebenarnya

hatiku membatu

jiwaku membeku

aku ingin kuat

aku ingin kebal

apa ini pelajaran hidup buat aku?

sesedih inikah aku?

aku ingin berhenti dengan detak jantungku yang keras seperti ini

aku ingin menangis

kesah keluar

beban hilang

akan menyenangkan

batas ruang yang sempit

dengan dimensi

yang berbeda

aku hilang

kembalikan akalku

kembalikan batasku

dan normalku!

aku ingin dewasa.

when i wake up

2009-07-01T09:29:00.000+07:00

im latee to wake late late latee and latee everyday!

the first think that i am doing .. smile and take a deep deep deep breath

hope today gonna be beautiful day

^^ dont feel nervous and all be better than yesterday

trust to my happiness and myself to drive this day

loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee today! yeaaaaaaaaaah!

^^ hardest life?!

2009-07-01T00:49:00.000+07:00

life is so bright. i dont want to run away from this life!

to many lessons can we take from this life.

maybe sometimes i cant say anything to face this life. too hard and need much forbearance to face it. love, stuck, bored, are common think that we can find in around.

today i have learn how to be patient and can accept the situation that has happened with me.

at first i can't accepted the situation that has happened to me. and i cry cry and cry.

cry is not the answer of all!! only tired that i get. and finaly i realized that i should be face it.

i know that people in around still loves me and they support me.

friend is everythink! (thanks all)

i just wanna say that life is so bright. no doubt!

depending on the views of each person. ^^ .

i enjoy with my life although a lot of complain and grumbling all i have. life only once!

do i seen as a stronger girl? i just wanna try to be stronger. can i??